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Resurrection & New Life

2009-10-01T17:37:00.003-04:00

The title of this post is probably a little misleading. It consists of two very deep, meaningful elements of the Christian faith, but that's not what this post is about. Today, it is about the resurrection of this blog and the new life I've come to experience over this extremely dynamic last year. Here's a quick timeline refresher:

May 30, 2008 - got engaged
July 10, 2008 - quit my job as a teacher @ PHS
August 30, 2008 - got married
September 5, 2008 - went to Europe (extended honeymoon!)
September 17, 2008 - returned from honeymoon
September 22, 2008 - moved to Troy where Fred started his new job
November 2, 2008 - found out I was pregnant
February 2, 2008 - started a full-time, temporary position as a school secretary at Red Hill
May 30, 2009 - became a full-time homemaker (and a VERY pregnant one, at that)
June 29, 2009 - delivered my first-born, a healthy baby boy, Dean
July 18, 2009 - went "back to work" as a photographer, this was my 1st of 4 weddings in 6 weeks
September 25, 2009 - started working again @ Red Hill, this time once a week as art teacher

Needless to say, I have experienced a lot of change this year and have been learning the art of "adjustment." There are many little lessons that all combine to prove our mastery of adjustment... one of which is that we will never be fully ready, fully able, or fully adjusted to the extent that we can handle what is next. Whether the circumstances thrown our way are good, bad, or ugly, we can only find rest and true peace in adjusting through the wisdom of the Holy Spirit. It is Jesus' friendship that loves us through circumstances of all kinds, His constant reminder that "I AM," and Oh, How He loves us.

Some things have been harder than others to adjust to, but I know that I can keep learning and growing alongside God, which is a great blessing to me.

A Break.

2008-12-02T15:17:00.003-05:00

This may sound strange, but the kind of "break" I am talking about doesn't involve resting, relaxing, getting away, or avoiding work in any way, shape, or form. In fact, it's the opposite.

I finally got a big break in looking for some substitute teaching work! That's right, I got a call back today from a third-party sub-hiring company that set me up with a gig at Woodmont Academy Thursday and Friday this week, with a promise to call later this week to set up more opportunities for the near future.

You may think I'm crazy for wanting to work so badly, and even crazier for being excited about substitute teaching, but it's totally what I've been looking for. Fred's job pays our bills, but this will be a huge help to our family, ESPECIALLY around the holiday season. We have no plans to go overboard with lots of lavish gifts, but we both really desire to give a few things to our close loved ones, and to give to those less fortunate. All that being said, I MUST GIVE THANKS!

The Lord allowed me gifts and talents and patience for teaching, He then provided for me a steady job over the past three years that educated, challenged, and matured me in ways I never thought possible. Now, His provision of this simple little job brings me joy once again for the gift of a job, of a special little purpose, of a way to serve and honor others, and as a way to provide for others' many needs. I am so excited and so grateful to have a reason to wake up at 6 a.m. on Thursday!

Freeze Tagged

2008-11-19T23:13:00.004-05:00

I've been talking up a big game about this video that I found some time ago on YouTube. I loved the subversive yet respectful nature of this group of people, banding together to "stick it to the man" (or just have a good time) with a laugh. Enjoy!

Our New House

2008-11-08T10:12:00.004-05:00

It's been a month and a half since we moved in, but we FINALLY got our living room furniture this week. Which means...
I can finally post some pictures of our new digs! Here are a few, taken through my fisheye lens in hopes that you can see much more of the room in each view.

Our living room, with the new furniture.

The kitchen.

Our tranquil bedroom.

The classy grey & clean blue bathroom.

The spare bedroom & office.

Prayer for Healing

2008-11-01T20:57:00.002-04:00

We received news a week ago that my great aunt Gerrie recently found out she has a brain tumor. Aunt Gerrie is a devoted wife, loving mother, faithful pastor's wife, phenomenal Christian speaker, and now an accomplished writer. Whenever I think of Aunt Gerrie, I picture a fun-loving, vivacious woman who gratefully keeps Jesus Christ as her Lord & savior of her life. I admire her very much, and am asking for prayers from anybody who may occasionally still check in on this blog. She and my great uncle Clyde are in high hopes of a full healing, and for those interested, they can follow this blog, kept updated by their daughter Lori.

"Oy vey!" We are love you and we're praying for you Aunt Gerrie & Uncle Clyde!

Photo Website

2008-09-30T10:43:00.003-04:00

Hey all!

Be sure to click on this link to check out my Smugmug website, a gallery site that features a few of the senior portraits, engagements, and weddings that I have shot. You can click through thumbnails, or click to enlarge them if you want. You can even vote for the ones you like & dislike, so I know what people are looking for!

The best part is that you can order prints & products through this website. The beauty of it lies in the fact that you only choose the images that you want, and then get to choose the size and paper you want it printed on. Other products such as mugs, t-shirts, aprons, canvases, coasters, and much more are also available for print.

PLEASE take time to check it out. It has helped my business tremendously.

Now I'm off to find the post office in my new town... There are a lot of things you just don't think of when you move!

MARRIED! and more.

2008-09-18T13:54:00.003-04:00

Well this is a little note to let you all know that I DID get married on August 30 to the best husband I'll ever have, Mr. Fred Betcher (III). We have spent the last few weeks in wedded bliss and on our honeymoon, in Ludington and Europe. It was a BLAST. As soon as I sift through all of our thousands (yes, THOUSANDS) of photos, I'll be sure to post a few from all of the places we visited. I might post in the style of a friend whose recent trip to Sweden was published in daily increments. I loved reading it, learned a lot about the places she & her husband visited, and was stunned by her gorgeous shots and angles of the various locations.

For now, I must concentrate on packing, moving, and shooting a very special wedding this weekend. I have the privilege of seeing not just two people become one this weekend, but two families become one. God has truly blessed the couple and their children with a second chance at love and family - something He designed and protects in love.

2 DAYS!!!

2008-08-28T08:21:00.006-04:00

That's right, 2 days until I am officially off the market (REMEMBER THE CONSTRUCTION! Click here for details.). The time has FLOWN by, as I knew it would. I just couldn't comprehend what it would be like. I am hoping my wedding day doesn't go by in such a blur that I can't recall it well. It will help that we are video taping it, and will have photos, but I really want to be present and basking in those moments. I want to mean my vows when I say them.

Yesterday I finished editing the wedding pics from last weekend. I only need to burn them to a disc & ship them off today, which is a HUGE weight off my shoulders. They turned out pretty well, I was really excited to see some of the images that I wasn't sure about transform into beauties. It didn't hurt any that the bride was a blushing, beautiful, blue-eyed babe. Her groom cleaned up nice, too. I'll post some of them - sometime. Or maybe a link to their Smugmug gallery.

This morning I am getting things ready to take to the church, so I can start setting up the reception as much as possible. Fred is helping me, and maybe some of his family. Nick comes back in the afternoon, and a whole car full of girls I love will pull in around that time, as well. They have planned some kind of bachelorette party for me, so that should be... interesting.

In effort to keep my mind and heart more on the present (and less on "what's next?" mode), a couple of my friends who were recently married left me some messages on my blog and Facebook wall. I thought they gave very sound advice. I'm wondering if anybody else has some advice for the girl about to get married in 2 days?

PLEASE comment, if you have something to share. :)

Russell Engagement Photos

2008-08-27T13:39:00.007-04:00

I have uploaded to my Faithful Photography Smugmug site about 2/3 of the photos from last Friday's engagement shoot with the future Mr. & Mrs. Russell! As time allows, the remaining photos will be added, as well. Click here to peruse a gallery of photos. Feel free to leave comments on the photos & vote for your favorites. It helps me become a better photographer - I LOVE constructive criticism!

3 DAYS!!!

2008-08-27T09:48:00.006-04:00

days.

I can scarcely believe I am allowed to type that!

The next three days will be filled (and I mean FILLED) with as much preparation as we can shove in before Fred & I marry on Saturday. I keep asking him if he's nervous, and he insists that he's not. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous - not about marrying Fred, but about the whole wedding. We of course want everything to go off without a hitch, so we are preparing and praying as much as possible before Saturday. I have purposed to enjoy the day on Saturday, no matter what happens and no matter what anybody says to me. I am marrying the man I love and we will share the company of many friends & family. What's not to love?!

This may be one of the most surprising seasons of my life, as I mentioned all of the surprises yesterday. Add one more to the mix, because my best girl called me last night and told me that she was not, in fact, driving 9.5 hours overnight with her fiance on Thursday night to arrive here in the wee hours of Friday morning. She is instead flying to Chicago, then driving here on Thursday afternoon with all of the rest of my girls! She even took a personal day @ work for me, I am so grateful. Not only will she be here to spend more time with me, but she will be in town for my bachelorette party (another surprise - they are kidnapping me) tomorrow night, and able to sleep over and help out with everything on Friday. Her fiance will drive solo all the way in on Friday and stay through Sunday and they'll drive back on Sunday, so he is a hero in this, too!

I AM SO EXCITED!!! And blessed!!!

Construction Alert

2008-08-26T21:10:00.005-04:00

For those of you coming to our wedding on Saturday, BE PREPARED FOR ROAD CONSTRUCTION & DETOURS. Please allow 10 minutes extra to work around the construction.

Major reconstruction is taking place at the intersection of I-94 and US 131. The ramp to eastbound I-94 from both northbound and southbound US 131 will be closed. There are a few ways to get around the construction, but these are the fastest.

NORTHBOUND 131 (toward Grand Rapids):

Take Centre Street exit from 131, and turn right (east) on Centre. Drive 2 miles east to Oakland Drive, then turn left (north) and continue for 2.5 miles on Oakland Drive. The church will be on your left, just before I-94.

SOUTHBOUND 131 (toward Indiana):

Take the detour by going west on I-94 to 9th Street, the first exit west of 131. Turn around at 9th and travel over I-94, then eastbound on I-94 for 2 miles to the Oakland Drive exit. The church will be on your immediate right.

EASTBOUND or WESTBOUND I-94:

Both directions have access to Oakland Drive. The church is on the south side of I-94, on the west side of Oakland.

We can't wait to celebrate with you!

4 DAYS!!!

2008-08-26T10:42:00.006-04:00

days!

Yesterday, I was overwhelmed with surprise. First, I found out that we do in fact have a place to go after our wedding. We don't leave for our honeymoon until the eve of September 4, so we have a few days to kill before then. Fred made plans to go up north to Ludington and stay in a cabin there - a PERFECT way to relax.

My second surprise came in the form of my parents' wedding gift to Fred & I - a pair of matching kayaks! I was a little worried when my dad told us, "This gift we are going to give you has never even graced your mind, you've never even thought of it." That being said, he was a little nervous to give it to us for fear that we hadn't thought of it because we didn't want it! It turned out really well, though. Fred & I were elated! We can use them on our camping trips, and maybe even take them up north with us!

Last little note, below are some shots from Friday's engagement session with Jimi & Jill. They are such a cute couple! I couldn't decide which shots to edit, so I did all 200 of them! Jimi has been on active duty in Asia over the last few months, and was supposed to come home a week & a half ago. Just a week before he was supposed to come home, he was given the bad news that there was not enough money and he wouldn't be able to come home just yet.

So Jill prayed. And her family prayed. And her friends prayed.

And Jimi came home! He was given his ticket just hours before his plane left from Japan.

So in celebration of his homecoming and in anticipation of his upcoming wedding to Jill, we braved the rain on Friday morning and got some GREAT shots. Thanks for a fun morning, Jimi & Jill!

"Come-hither" at the KIA.

Little Dutch kids always kiss.

Fields of gold.

5 DAYS!!!

2008-08-25T13:06:00.006-04:00

days.

Today I'm editing those engagement shots from Friday & starting the wedding photos. I'll post them soon, if I get a chance - maybe tomorrow's post. Tonight my parents are having Fred & I over for a yummy steak dinner with them & Alison, and they are giving us our wedding present. I am so excited! They have been enormously helpful and wonderful through this whole engagement & the wedding planning process, as well. I am blessed with some great parents, siblings, and extended family already - it seems pretty crazy that God would bless me with ANOTHER wonderful family. He sure has great plans, far better than what I could have come up with.

Oh, and my wedding dress came home from the "hospital" today. Happy, happy, joy, joy!

A little teaser of the dress:

6 DAYS!!!

2008-08-24T10:12:00.004-04:00

I don't know about the 7 nights, but just 6 more days before I marry the one I love!

A little update on yesterday's wedding shoot - it went really well! There was NO RAIN while we were out on the beach, the clouds rolled in just as we rolled away. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS! The rain held off & I held on during the more hectic moments. I fell in love with the camera I shot with, but still found much use for my Rebel. I'm pretty grateful for that thing! It has opened up a lot of fun, learning, and even witnessing opportunities.

Liza & Dustin Mielke are happily wed and blissfully headed off on their honeymoon this morning. Best wishes and God's blessings for a wonderful life, you 2!!! I had such a fun time with your family, and your generosity is much appreciated.

Pics to come!

7 DAYS!!!

2008-08-23T09:47:00.006-04:00

That's right, one week until I am Mrs. Emily Betcher. It has a nice ring to it, doesn't it? I always thought so. And check out the forecast for next Saturday!!!

Anyway, I am off to photograph a wedding today. It's in South Haven and while the weather looks BEAUTIFUL this morning, there is a 40% chance of showers & thunderstorms this afternoon (when the wedding commences). Please pray for clear weather for the couple, Liza & Dustin! It is a beach ceremony, which has been their dream and desire. I would love the opportunity to shoot this wedding outside, as well.

I borrowed a friend's Canon 5D, so hopefully I'll come away with some nice shots on both that and my little Rebel XTi. I am saving up for a 5D (or whatever new & improved Canon version comes out in April), and have a few weddings & senior portraits to do, to help me purchase one. My goal with my business is to stay debt-free, so if I have to rent or borrow other equipment, or "just make do" with my current equipment, that's just fine with me! I want to keep learning and pushing myself to grow and to better understand the technology I have, to serve others. There is a reason God gave me the ability to purchase my XTi, and I would hate for discontent to cloud that reason. As I once told my dad (and he is faithful to remind me), "It's not the camera that takes the picture."

A sneak-peak at a few more of Alison's senior pics (the ones she decided on):

8 DAYS!!!

2008-08-22T14:00:00.002-04:00

You guessed it - I'm marrying the man of my dreams in 8 days. A little over a week. Wow.

And between now & then, I've got a few things to do:

Edit engagement shots I took this morning
Photograph a wedding
Edit that wedding's photos
Send off the engagement shots & the other wedding's photos
Go for a final fitting & bring my wedding gown home from the "dress hospital"
Pack for moving
Maybe pack for the honeymoon
Pack for the days immediately following the wedding
Decorate the sanctuary & gym
Have a bachelorette party
Hang out with friends & family

Just a few things on my plate, it could be a lot worse. Think of all the things God was able to accomplish in just 7 days! And still had time to rest! I am praying He gives me a little of that strength & perseverance to work hard through these next few days, that I may relax and enjoy next Saturday. I covet your prayers as we do our best to prepare, prepare, prepare for the swiftly approaching wedding & marriage.

9 DAYS!!!

2008-08-21T10:38:00.005-04:00

I'll be a Mrs. in a mere 9 days! Unbelievable.

In other news, one of my future brothers-in-law is leaving the state soon, and I am going to miss him! Nick is taking off this weekend for North Central University in the Twin Cities, where he will pursue his post-secondary degree. He's been knocking off credits at a community college for a while, and is excited to move with the Lord, following His will and pursuing His presence. He'll fly back next weekend for the wedding, but it will be short-lived.

I am just thrilled for him. In remembering how formative my college years were for me, and I am so proud of the decision he's made. While I'm extremely sad that he will now be 9 hours away from me (11 hours from our new home!), I am blessed that he has moved into a certain Dearest Friend's "neighborhood," and that I'll get to spend time with both of them now, when we visit. I know that I'll see him for holidays and breaks, too, and already plan to visit when I attend her wedding in October.

So in tribute to my new brother, a College "To-Do" List:

1. Glorify God.

2. Have fun.

3. Soak in the education.

4. Try lots of new things.

5. Some things aren't worth trying - don't give in to the masses.

10 DAYS!!!

2008-08-19T19:54:00.003-04:00

I'm definitely not talking about waiting 10 days for a letter. I'm waiting the next 10 days to get married.

Shower #3

2008-08-19T00:36:00.004-04:00

The third shower that was given to me was no exception to the abundance of blessing, fun, and fellowship that marked the first two. This time it was hosted by family friends Laurie Krum & Nancy Haas, and held in the Krums' amazing, immaculate pool area. There were many sweet, fun, fine ladies in attendance - many from different parts of my life. In the game that we played, each woman was "randomly" called upon by myself (drawing a gift from a basket that matched the gift she had chosen from another basket) and was asked to introduce herself to everybody else, and to describe a first, early, or otherwise significant memory of me. It was so fun when some women were able to say they knew me before I was born, and to have other young women whom I have only just met this year share my joy. What a blessing to hear these women speak fondly of memories I share - words can't describe the joy it was to share in. (Moreover, my future mother-in-law got to hear some "great Emily stories" that she didn't know, and got a little peek into the early Emily. Basically, she got to hear how far the nerdiness goes back into my childhood - it's deep, nearly fathomless. I may have been cool at some point during my early toddler days, but it's hard to say.)

It was just a taste of the joy that Fred & I will share in 11 days when we say our vows in the presence of God, family, and many, many friends. (Insert annoyingly high-pitched squeal here.)

Shower #2

2008-08-14T09:56:00.003-04:00

The ladies at my mom's work (KVO) were kind enough to throw me a shower at the Ground Round. We shared a few laughs, ate a yummy meal, and I opened presents. I think that has become (quite selfishly) my favorite part of showers.

Though I've known a few of the "KVO ladies" since I was born, I was also blessed by the presence and generosity of women there who love me because they love my mom - how sweet is that?! It gave me a whole new perspective of Jesus' teaching about loving the "least of these." I have always lived in plenty, and have never thought of myself as the "least of these." I don't particularly feel that way now, but when I am blessed in such a way that I can't comprehend the love, compassion, and generosity behind it, I know I must be the least this time, and it makes me want to live that generously with my own time, love, effort, compassion, and even finances (a big deal for this Dutch girl - can I get an "Amen"?).

"Then the King will say to those on His right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.'

Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?

And the King will answer them, 'Truly, I say to you, as you did it to one of the least of these my brothers, you did it to me.'"

Matthew 25:34-40

Shower #1

2008-07-31T01:42:00.004-04:00

This last weekend, my future mother-in-law and my future cousin-in-law (and current friend & bridesmaid!) were gracious enough to host a bridal shower for me. It was PERFECT. We had a Pampered Chef party (ladies, I highly recommend this to ANY bride-to-be) at church, and enjoyed a luncheon together with a few games and prizes for good measure. I was only slightly embarrassed to don several "princess" type items, including a foofy skirt, a pink boa, a Bride-to-Be sash, and (worst of all) a tiara. My embarrassment was my guests' pleasure, and it really cut the ice for those who didn't know each other to enjoy a slight mockery of my ridiculous ensemble.

My coronation.

A noble curtsy.

Cooking with style.

Mmmm - carrot cake, brownies & cookies!

I had a great time, and I feel truly blessed.

"The One With the Much-Needed Vacation"

2008-07-25T15:56:00.007-04:00

I know, I know. It's been weeks. But, honestly, if you have been waiting weeks for me to update my blog... you should think about spending more time outdoors this summer.

In any case, here is a photojournalistic update of the past few weeks.

10 Senior girls on a slide

BFFs

Country girls, or the glamorous stars of "The Fields"

"The City of Tomorrow, Today" (aka the Land Before Time)

Our new home!

My fiance's masterpiece on Lake Huron - made me proud!

"Mikey" and Ali bonding before heading to Honduras on a mission trip

I love this guy. I think I'll marry him.

Sneak Peek at Seniors

2008-07-02T22:54:00.004-04:00

I had a blast shooting some senior portraits for two girls that are close to my heart today: my little sister & her best friend. I can't give all of them away, but I picked a few of my favorites from each session to post below. PLEASE NOTE that they are UNEDITED * versions, as I will be editing them in their entirety and have not yet captured all the shots I want. Tomorrow, my sister & I will go to South Haven to shoot some more and to meet my only August bride, Liza. We are going to start at the beach, then move into town and end up meeting with Liza at Captain Nemo's for some ice cream - yummmmmm!!! For now, enjoy some of the shots I was able to capture today... and can you tell which girl likes the angled shots?!

*not the naughty kind.

Wedding Madness

2008-06-18T11:25:00.004-04:00

Invitations are going out today! Wedding planning is in full-swing and I am already tired of it. At this point, we have a lot of things worked out but it seems like a ton more are just waiting to be done. At least the registry is all figured out.

We went yesterday to register for the items we liked at Bed, Bath and Beyond. They were so efficient! The store was very well-run. We had a very nice experience, albeit a long one as we made some decisions together. I, of course, relished in the opportunity to pick out and mentally design what our future home would look like (we don't have a place to live planned yet, by the way). It was a different story for Fred; toward the end he acted like a sailor who had been lost at sea for weeks- starved and crazed. At the point when I caught him scanning obscure items for fun, I knew it was time to leave.When we got to his parents house, Fred accused his father of never having registry shopped, because he "never warned me about it." Oh brother.

Don't forget to check out our wedding website for answers to some of your potential questions, wedding details & R.S.V.P. options, and some hilarious old photographs of Fred & I.

Important Wedding Registry Tip

2008-06-11T22:29:00.008-04:00

Just a note about Target's Club Wedd wedding registry (much thanks to our friends Sy & Kate, who called me immediately after he found out that Fred & I are registered at Target):

If you decide to purchase any Target registry gifts, please obtain a gift receipt.

We have nothing against Target (we love the store!), but apparently there are some issues with returns and the registry's policies are fairly strict. We plan to only register for what we actually need and will use, but in the event of some unforseen circumstance, Fred & I would like the options of return or exchange. If you have any questions about the return policy, check ClubWedd.com.

THANKS FOR YOUR HELP!

Dressed for Success

2008-06-11T22:15:00.003-04:00

After a fun day of trying on an assortment of wedding gowns, I found THE ONE!

I thought finding the right dress would be the hard part, but that turned out to be the easiest. When my sales associate went to order the dress in my size, she was turned down. There weren't any more in stock. The Lord is bigger than my little problem, however, and she kept trying until finally today (5 days after we first started trying them) the dress company found one in my size/color combination partially made in China. It will be finished and shipped here, then be here in "early August." I am still not out of the woods, so let's all pray that God comes through in a big way and that it fits like the glove I am hoping for!

In other news, I can't believe tomorrow is my last day of school for the whole school year. It's crazy, it seems like it just started. I learned a lot this year, I hope I taught half as much as what I learned.

Shop 'til We Drop

2008-06-07T08:59:00.004-04:00

I am going to shop for a wedding dress today! My mom, Tess & Mrs. Betcher (my future mother-in-law!!!) will be accompanying me to Davids Bridal (where every gown is on sale, starting TODAY!) & Patty's Bridal Boutique. I've heard that you can get lost in Patty's, it is so large and so full of dresses.

Please pray that I find the best dress TODAY (or soon), so that I don't have to waste time looking. I am also asking God for a dress that I can wear right off the rack, because I don't think I have time for alterations. Plus, if I find one today, I could try it on every day this summer until August 31.

P.S. Fred will NOT be allowed to see the dress (or me IN the dress) until I walk down the aisle, so please don't describe it to him - he's very sneaky, if you couldn't tell by his proposal.

My Favorite Surprise

2008-06-03T19:48:00.005-04:00

Everybody's been wanting to hear the story of how it happened, so here it is from my perspective:

I took Friday off of school to attend a photography workshop hosted by three amazing professional photographers (a post about my awesome experience there is sure to come!) both that day & Saturday. After a long day of learning Friday, I was experiencing a little "brain mush." As I drove home from the workshop in Kalamazoo, I called my friend Tess & invited myself over to join her family's pizza & a movie night.

Just after we had started the movie and our dinner, Fred called me on my cell phone. He told me he was taking some stuff up to one of his former students at Faholo Camp & Conference Center. He is still living in Toledo, so it was an hour & a half drive and he wanted someone to talk to. When he found out I was at Sean & Tess's (his cousin & cousin-in-law) house, he asked to speak with Sean and made it sound very convenient that I happened to be there. I told him I'd call him when I left, and let he and Sean talk about "car stuff" for about 5-10 minutes. When they hung up, we all jumped back into the movie.

About an hour went by, and he called me again:

Fred: Hey, what are you up to?

Emily: Um... I'm still watching the movie. (Duh. I told you I'd call you after.)

Fred: So are you in the room with them right now?

Emily: No. (That would be rude.) I am downstairs.

Fred: Well can you do me a favor, then?

Emily: Maybe. (You can't make me.)

Fred: Put on your shoes & turn on the outside light.

Emily: Do I have to tie my shoes? (What?! Why did that even cross my mind, let alone come out of my mouth?)

Fred: Nope.

Emily: Okay...

It was at this time that I opened the front door and my best friend came walking up the driveway, surprising me with an impromptu weekend visit, yet again. We greeted each other with an embrace, and salutations, when suddenly Fred leaned back, told me he loved me and that he wanted to marry me. Then he got down on one knee, pulled out a ring, and proposed to me right there - in that floodlit driveway on a muggy night at the end of May.

I told him I'd think about it.

JUST KIDDING! I said yes. I am so honored & excited to be in this stage of our relationship, and am very much looking forward to the new life that God has for us.

*Photos Courtesy of ShutterSam (Samantha VanderList)*

P.S. I love my ring! He picked the PERFECT ring for me, and had it within 40 minutes of looking - further evidence of his impeccable taste (heehee!).

EMC Graduation

2008-05-24T09:18:00.005-04:00

Well, I'm headed out to Temperance to watch these yahoos graduate:

It should be a blast & undoubtedly a blessing! It's been a privilege and an honor to see what God has done in their lives over the past 9 months, during which they dedicated their time, efforts, service, and love to Him. As I mentioned to Kendra, I can't wait to see what He has in store for the rest of their lives.

What Time Is It?!

2008-05-22T20:59:00.001-04:00

It's rebate time! Hoo!

Annnnnnnnnnnd I'm tempted.

Hanging On

2008-05-12T19:57:00.003-04:00

One more month of school, and this is pretty much how I feel.

Weekend Update

2008-05-07T21:37:00.008-04:00

What a nice weekend! I traveled to Temperance & Toledo on Saturday, hurrying along in the morning with plans to surprise Fred for his birthday (the 4th). Little did I know that the surprise was on me - he arrived 2 hours later than planned due to travel delays.

We had a great time, anyway, and it all started with Fred opening some birthday presents. He was blessed by a lot of different loved ones, so that was fun.

Then, we went out to dinner to celebrate at Longhorn Steakhouse - a restaurant which, despite our server's "Hi-diddly-doodly!" greeting, was tremendous. Fred had "one of the top 5 best steaks" he's ever had - an 11 oz. New York Strip cooked to perfection (medium-rare, with light, savory seasonings & grilled shrimp on top - mmmm!).

After dinner, I gave Fred a painting I have been working on for quite a long time now. I forgot to take pictures of it, maybe I'll update this post some time in the future when I have taken a photo of it.

Anyway, the gracious Wagners supplied me with a soft bed to sleep in, a warm shower, and breakfast in the morning. Someone also supplied my car with breakfast, too, as I woke to find it had been egged. Hilarious, people. And how did you manage to get it to slide INTO my rear window, even though it was closed?

BCC's worship & teaching service was encouraging, as usual. It was fun to get to have Fred next to me in the pews for the first time in a long time - usually he is involved in the worship team. After service, the hospitable Flood family circus (I kid) invited me to join the Everfree Master's Commission for lunch, fellowship, and a leadership talk over at their house.

I can't describe to you the pleasure I received in their company and in Beth's homemade enchiladas & cookies. Muy bueno!

I also made a new friend, Miss Bryn Flood. I taught Bryn how to make smiley baloney.

She, in turn, tested the limits of my embarrassment with some superb questions about relationships. My favorite getting-to-know-you moment went like this:

Bryn: "Are you a kid or a mom?"

Me: "I'm an adult."

Bryn: "Oh. Well do you have any kids?"

Me: "No, I'm not married."

Bryn: "Well when are you getting married?"

Me: "You'll have to ask Fred that."

After hours of refreshing conversation with Pastor Rick & Beth, we bid our adieus and finished off the day with a light supper and quality time session with Aaron. A lovely ending to a weekend well-spent.

Captain, My Captain

2008-05-01T23:08:00.004-04:00

My favorite brother has amazed me yet AGAIN. He is finishing out his Junior year at Hope College, and will be playing quarterback for the football team next fall in his final year of college. He was recently named a 2008-09 Co-Captain of his team, along with teammate Erik Ladomersky.

Check him out on the Hope Football web page - you can scroll down and see his mug on the bottom of the left sidebar throughout the duration of the season. It was taken his Freshman year.

Congrats, Jake!!!

Poster Panic

2008-04-26T23:39:00.004-04:00

Just made some posters today... I got them printed for 70% off at Office Max and the quality was fantastic! These are shown in ascending order according to how well I like the image.

Now, does anybody have any idea where I should put these 18" x 24" bad boys? Particularly the wedding pictures... Please post your ideas!

Following Through

2008-04-24T20:32:00.007-04:00

It's time to make good on one of my resolutions.

I signed up to take a workshop to further my working knowledge of photography. Hosted by a co-worker's ridiculously-talented daughter, I am very much looking forward to learning about equipment, lighting, workflow, starting & maintaining a business, optimally using Photoshop, portrait photography techniques, wedding portrait market, pricing for profit, and more. While at Holly's studio with up to 20 other photographers, we'll shoot portraits of each other and models - including a bridal fashion model and a real bride & groom- and use Photoshop to enhance and build up our portfolios.

Seriously - what am I not learning?

Anyway, I am looking forward to all of the information, as well as the exposure (pun intended) to other photographers in various stages of their field and business. It's going to be SWEET!

Sicko

2008-04-19T11:51:00.008-04:00

I have a sick mind. If I want to compare it to a host of worldly things, I could probably feel pretty good about what I don't do, say, or think. I could also gain a great sense of pride from that notion, and just go on dwelling in the sickness of sin and anything less than holy.

If we use the excuse, "At least I'm not as bad as ______________," we will never grow. We will never get better. We will stay sick, and in fact grow more sick with each passing justification. Spiritual sickness manifests itself in a host of ways in this world - one of them being in our mentality and attitude. Sickness is a slow death, which God warned Adam would be the ultimate result of his disobedience. The same is true for us - the ultimate result of giving over our minds to the ways of the world is death and destruction. I really do feel that, when I am not consistent in my time alone with the Lord, when I am not trading the concerns of the world for His Word, and when I am quick to meditate on fleeting, earthly things rather than the things acceptable to God. My "sick" thoughts deteriorate my attitude, my situation, and even infect other people through my relationships. Without Jesus Christ as the consistent center and antidote for my worldly condition, I am a sicko without hope for a cure. I, for one, am sick of being sick.

David speaks of this weakness and sickness of mind in Psalm 19:8-14. It is revealed to him that God is the standard of holiness and health that we should be striving for, and that His righteousness is what we should seek.

The precepts of the Lord are right,

rejoicing the heart;

the commandment of the Lord is pure,

enlightening the eyes;

the fear of the Lord is clean,

enduring forever;

the rules of the Lord are true,

and righteous altogether.

More to be desired are they than gold,

even much fine gold;

sweeter also than honey and drippings of the honeycomb.

Moreover, by them is your servant warned;

in keeping them there is great reward.
Who can discern his errors?

Declare me innocent from hidden faults.

Keep back your servant also from presumptuous sins;

let them not have dominion over me!

Then I shall be blameless,

and innocent of great transgression.
Let the words of my mouth

and the meditation of my heart

be acceptable in your sight,

O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.

Paul brought the mental sickness of the world in us back to our attention in Romans 12:1-2:

I appeal to you therefore, brothers & sisters, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.

In Phillipians 4: 8, Paul goes into greater detail about the things we should dwell on and meditate in, the characteristics of God which He has freely shared with us:

Finally, brothers & sisters, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.

Jesus is the only Way to God, and these are the characteristics of the Father that He showed us and uses to guide us home, to make us more like Him. So, will we be part of the cure? Or part of the disease?

With God We Shall Do Valiantly

2008-04-05T11:13:00.004-04:00

A Song. A Psalm of David.

108:1 My heart is steadfast, O God!
I will sing and make melody with all my being!
2 Awake, O harp and lyre!
I will awake the dawn!
3 I will give thanks to you, O Lord, among the peoples;
I will sing praises to you among the nations.
4 For your steadfast love is great above the heavens;
your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.

5 Be exalted, O God, above the heavens!
Let your glory be over all the earth!
6 That your beloved ones may be delivered,
give salvation by your right hand and answer me!

7 God has promised in his holiness:
“With exultation I will divide up Shechem
and portion out the Valley of Succoth.
8 Gilead is mine; Manasseh is mine;
Ephraim is my helmet,
Judah my scepter.
9 Moab is my washbasin;
upon Edom I cast my shoe;
over Philistia I shout in triumph.”

10 Who will bring me to the fortified city?
Who will lead me to Edom?
11 Have you not rejected us, O God?
You do not go out, O God, with our armies.
12 Oh grant us help against the foe,
for vain is the salvation of man!
13 With God we shall do valiantly;
it is He who will tread down our foes.

The Road Not Taken: Commitment

2008-03-20T21:46:00.004-04:00

I was driving home tonight, and there were two different ways to get home. One is highway driving so I could drive faster but it is longer in distance; the other is more backroads that require slower driving but are slightly more direct. Both ways have advantages and disadvantages; I had to make a choice.

The thing that is interesting about this kind of choice is that it doesn't involve morality. There is no "right" or "wrong" in the choice, because there is no clear advantage to one way versus the other. In a situation like this, the morality lies in the way you handle your choice. It demands commitment, perseverance, and strength.

I made my choice to start driving down what I will call Route A, and I stuck with it. I didn't test-drive Route A, then get caught up in the thoughts of doubt. "I wonder if Route B would have been faster. The traffic is thick tonight. And that other way, it would get me home eventually, maybe even faster - maybe I should try it." How unwise to turn around, retracing steps and wasting time as I tried to go back to where I'd already been! And then, who knows? Maybe Route B had an unforseen detour, which wastes yet more time, energy, and resources.

If I was that concerned about the speed and efficiency of the route in making the decision between routes A and B, I should not have allowed doubt to come in and plague me. If doubt could not be staved off then I should have pulled over, collected my wits, prayed, and worked my way through it. The best thing I could have done if that doubt prevailed would have been to simply drive faster and more efficiently when possible; to give it my best effort to get home, trusting that I was headed in the right direction and that there was purpose in that.

While it's true that God doesn't waste anything, we humans sure can waste a LOT. Sometimes we waste it when we back-track on decisions we make without simply pausing to ask God for help or working through the situation with the utmost of integrity. It was vital to me to get home (obviously, to blog), so by working through this seemingly insignificant decision, I got home safely, quickly, and happily.

When the time comes for you to make your next decision - where are you headed? Are you committed to making it there without waste?

tag along.

2008-03-19T17:13:00.008-04:00

Gilmore tagged me, so I am supposed to list 10 things about myself.

1. I am fairly well addicted to blogging & Craigslist. And I've never even made a transaction.

2. I really, really wish I had a Hasselblad H3DII-39. And knew how to really work it.

3. I love Jesus Christ, hands down.

4. I'm in love with FDB3.

5. I feel victorious when I win at Jeopardy.

6. I would visit all the world's finest art museums 24 hours a day if I could. Well, maybe just 12 hours a day.

7. I check various blogs way too many times a day.

8. I've been trying to finish a book I started back in January, and to be more humble. It appears I am a humble reader, so that is a good start.

9. Aside from the goals I've already reached in my life, I want to finish up on the goals I posted about earlier this year. I've made good on 3 of the 5 already!

10. I really love those strange moments of inexplicable mania, when one is filled with thought, emotion, and creative spirit. I'm talking about those sometimes overwhelming urges to write/draw/paint/compose/create.

I now tag Emily and Meghann.

Photobooth Fun

2008-03-16T20:13:00.007-04:00

If You've Read This Far, You're Obligated

2008-03-10T16:57:00.006-04:00

You, the reader of this blog, are stuck. You cannot turn back, and you cannot turn away. You are reading my words and the further you go, the farther it is from where you feel that you can stop or turn back. Every word you have read so far has influenced you and have created a conscious decision to go forward, to read on, to finish the blog. Perhaps you started reading this portion thinking that it would amount to something, and perhaps it will. I make no promises. Regardless, you're in this for the long haul.

Whether you are a first-time passer-by, a frequent visitor, a devoted reader, a comment-bearer or a silent stalker from afar, your obligation is the same.

COMMENT ON THE FOLLOWING:

What should I be when I grow up?

I've been doing a lot of thinking about this lately - probably because I've reached my quarterlife crisis (thank you, John Mayer, for coining that phrase for me). Anyway, leave me note of some sort that speaks to this topic.

Now.

Because you have to.

Because I said so, and you read so.

Thirsty in Temperance

2008-03-01T19:54:00.010-05:00

This weekend I had the privilege of visiting Bedford Christian Community Assembly of God, where I attended a "Dwell" worship service. Dwell is a time set aside by the church to worship Jesus in song, prayer, and reflection, it is a time to dwell in the presence of the Lord. The church was set up just enough to offer a myriad of options to personally worship God, but without unnecessary distraction (except for a meddling photographer, ahem*). Several communion stations were available, a free-standing prayer wall was poised to accept the written prayers of attendants, another wall offered existing prayer requests for intercession, and the altar was open for business.

The theme of this Dwell service was "Thirsty," and I have to admit that's exactly how I came into church that night. Though I wish it weren't so, it's not often that I take time to reflect and acknowledge how desperate for God I am. It was a divine night of freedom, where I was reminded of my freedom to exist and worship God - what a supremely big deal that is!

I had a great time meeting many new people and was offered a lot of grace throughout the whole weekend - thanks be to God! And thank you, too, BCC.

I Can't Relate

2008-02-24T09:35:00.006-05:00

I am a pretty slow reader, I tend to take my time through pages (even if the book or article is particularly fantastic). Presently, I am still reading Hind's Feet in High Places and I am really enjoying it. On the spiritual level of life, I think it is very well-written because it can apply to so many different people's situations.

I was once talking to a friend of mine who was going through some struggles and who got upset with me for saying, "I can relate..." when she insisted that I couldn't fully. Thankfully she's a dear enough friend that we overcame that, but recently we did agree on this:
Every person's life and situation is different, such that nobody else on earth can truly, fully relate to it. We can be sympathetic, but not truly empathetic of anybody's whole life situation. BUT (and that's a big but! ), Jesus Christ can fully relate. In taking on human flesh and taking our sin, He can relate (and more) to every situation we go through. What's more, it's important to recognize that the situations we "go through" are not arbitrary nor by chance, they are gifts from God. I think life situations are constant opportunities to both grow closer to and give glory to God, and they are provided by Him in His sovereignty - so God provides situations that will grow every single part of us closer to Him.

I'm pretty sure this is true because I can take whatever situation I am given - whether I deem it good, bad, or neither - and glorify God with it. That is a big deal! The problem is, I mostly just go through my days "getting through the day" until I can relax at the end when I could be determinedly glorifying Him throughout EVERYTHING I do all day and then relax in His presence later. It's clear to see which one is easier, which is unfortunately but honestly the one I end up choosing more than not. I have hope that the Lord will change that in me as I set my heart on Him more decisively each day - I want to change for God's glory!

I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing

2008-02-21T22:47:00.013-05:00

Whew.

Although I have to admit I'm a bit concerned still, after reading that "some analysts said the Pentagon had reasons other than safety for bringing down the satellite."

What?!

Red, Passionate Love

2008-02-14T18:16:00.003-05:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way, it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things... So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

-I Corinthians 13:4-7, 13-

On the way to work today, I started seeing red. Allow me to clarify: I was sulking, thinking about my own situation, how my Valentine is so very far away right now, discontent as could be. I know, I know - poor me.

Suddenly some red lights caught my eye - lights atop four broadcasting towers - and my Love invaded my sad little heart with a message:

I love you so much that I bled for you, that I gave and gave and gave until the only thing left to give was my life over to death. But because of the purity of my love, death couldn't keep me. Every time you see red today, think of Me. Think of my passionate, enduring love for you, and know that you are My Beloved.

Thus, on behalf of the Lover of your soul, I urge you to have a Happy Valentine's Day, because the Almighty God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob loves you. And we love because He first loved us -

passionately.

Misery Loves Company

2008-02-11T22:31:00.000-05:00

Think you got it bad?

I do. All the time. I can grow discontent with my cereal before I finish it.

Attitude is everything, except in the case of miserable places. We really can't change miserable places on our own - that might be a fantastic lie, actually. While it's true that God can use anybody to do anything, He doesn't force us. He does, however, force His hand by allowing our situations to stress and strain us, to squeeze us until we insist that we cannot be squeezed anymore. And then sometimes He squeezes further.

We can't change the fact that we live in a sinful world and that we need a little wringing-out from time to time. We can't change the fact that the only way to be purified and made into a new creature is to endure pain. In fact, the only thing we can change is to allow it in us; in order to allow true change in us, our attitude must be like that of Christ Jesus. He not only went to the cross (enduring the pain, suffering, and agony that we know bits & pieces of), but He did so willingly, obediently, and lovingly. If we want to become more like Christ, if we wish to relate more to our Heavenly Father, we must allow the Holy Spirit to move us into, through, and out of times of suffering and places of misery.

"It's Friday, but Sunday's coming..."

When Will I Ever Learn

2008-02-06T20:16:00.000-05:00

The sun was setting over Avalon
The last time we stood in the west
Suffering long time angels enraptured by Blake
Burn out the dross innocence captured again

Standing on the beach at sunset all the boats
All the boats keep moving slow
In the glory of the flashing light in the evenings glow

When will I ever learn to live in God?
When will I ever learn?
He gives me everything I need and more
When will I ever learn?

You brought it to my attention everything that was made in God
Down through centuries of great writings and paintings
Everything lives in God
Seen through architecture of great cathedrals
Down through the history of time
Is and was in the beginning and evermore shall be

When will I ever learn to live in God?
When will I ever learn?
He gives me everything I need and more
When will I ever learn?

Whatever it takes to fulfill his mission
That is the way we must go
But you've got to do it your own way
Tear down the old, bring up the new
And up on the hillside its quiet
Where the shepherd is tending his sheep
And over the mountains and the valleys
The countryside is so green
Standing on the highest hill with a sense of wonder
You can see everything is made in God
Head back down the roadside and give thanks for it all

When will I ever learn to live in God?
When will I ever learn?
He gives me everything I need and more
When will I ever learn?

Song: When Will I Ever Learn to Live in God
Artist: Van Morrison

Happy Birthday Alison!

2008-02-05T06:36:00.001-05:00

Today is Alison's birthday and I just want to honor her for being such a good sister to me & Jake, daughter to our parents, and friend to all of us. I was brainstorming for what I would write that was publishable... and I got so sidetracked and tickled by some of our memories that I think I'll just list them out and let those who were actually there for each "episode" of Alison's life to enjoy reminiscing privately.

Poodies, Doops, Big Kahuna, Ali Baba, Ral, Ralson, Ralseen, Chooch.
Easter egg hunts, "Meet-sie Potts," Reading books, Aladdin tent, Ears plugged, 1/2-moon, Dirty looks at smokers in downtown Chicago, "Shhhhhhh, " Sleeping in my room Christmas Eve, Waking up at 4:30 a.m. on Christmas morning, Maggie the turtle, "I don't even know what that means."
"Crushes" on: Jesse, Jake, Me (?!), Tanner, every boy, Tanner again.
Big Tex, Wal-mart, Dairy Queen, Face Lotion on the plane, "It's the culture," PHS vs. SHS volleyball, The Great Black Friday Cheese Incident, "Sisters, sisters - there were never such devoted sisters" (as performed by Ali and our cousin!), Random screaming or laughing, BB slippage (in more ways than one), "Can you not use up all the hot water?", Slaps on the face, The Grits, "Nake!", Cheetah EVERYTHING, When You Think Tim McGraw, "I fell on my butt," All things that are good.

For my little sister, who has grown into my fashion consultant, my psycho-analyst, my laughing buddy, my understanding ear, my vacation buddy, my volleyball comrade, & my friend - I love you now and forever. You're a beautiful woman with an invaluable amount of strength, life, vibrance, hope and joy to offer everyone. It's my prayer that you will continue to turn that all over to Jesus, who knows all of you & loves every bit of His creation. Happy Birthday!

Perks & Benefits

2008-01-30T15:36:00.000-05:00

This might not be one of my job "benefits," but it's undoubtedly a perk and I always benefit from it -

today is a SNOW DAY!!!

It's our first of the 2007-08 school year and it couldn't have come on a better day. Well, except maybe a Friday. Or a Monday. Or both.

Whatever, the point is, thank you Jesus! Today's day off gave me extra sleep, and extra time to do a host of random, nagging errands and things that I "have been meaning to do" (but of course haven't). I even had time to make a list* of things I have to do. Annnnnnnnnd that is what I should get back to doing. Maybe I'll get down to the part of my list marked, "Blog with depth." Heehee.

*something I LOVE to do. lists of any kind = satisfying & helpful.

Life Imitates Art?

2008-01-26T17:42:00.000-05:00

Have we seen this movie before? I vote we send a team of rag-tag oil drillers up to the satellite and have them blow it up before it gets too close to earth and comes plummeting through our atmosphere in one large, uncontrollable, chunk.

Seriously, my favorite part of the article was:
He would not comment on whether it is possible for the satellite to be perhaps shot down by a missile. He said it would be inappropriate to discuss any specifics at this time.
Did some reporter propose this at the press conference?

My second-favorite part was:
In 2002, officials believe debris from a 7,000-pound science satellite smacked into the Earth's atmosphere and rained down over the Persian Gulf, a few thousand miles from where they first predicted it would plummet.
Faithfully proving the skeptical saying, "Close enough for government work."

**Added 1.31.2008:
Things just got crazier. Now we're talking Donnie Darko.

I'm a Bronze Medalist!

2008-01-08T23:34:00.000-05:00

Sort of...

My school is pretty awesome. Go Panthers!

Stormy Weather

2008-01-07T23:14:00.000-05:00

It is currently 61 degrees Fahrenheit, and there have been a string of thunderstorms pushing through the area all night. The high today was 65.

Did I mention it is January 7?!

Only in Michigan.

(Which is why you should move here, Em. Or any other friend who might be reading this.)

Resolute in 2008

2008-01-05T21:30:00.000-05:00

I was tagged by a friend to share my 2008 resolutions. It's funny that she tagged me because I had been thinking about whether or not I was going to formalize any definite resolutions for myself this year. On the one hand, resolutions can be a list of things we should be doing anyway, but slacked off or gave up on them at some point the last year. On the other hand, a new year can bring out a great desire to start fresh and not be tainted or corrupted by the bad habits that seem to set in unintentionally.

With all that said, I resolve to:

Pray Without Ceasing. I want to go deeper, acknowledging Christ in everything I do. I want to "practice the presence of God."

Read More. My goal is to read 10 books this year, 6 by July 1. (No, not picture books.) I'm starting with this one.

Regularly Practice Creativity. By disciplining myself to use the skills and the brain God has given me for 1 hour a week, I aim to allow the Holy Spirit time to fill me up and enrich my life via various forms of creativity.

Enhance My Understanding of Photography. Though it's possible to learn a lot through practice and experimentation, I think it's time I further my education related to photography. It has intrigued me and I remain interested in pursuing it, to see how I can get better at it and how the Lord can be glorified in it. I'll either take a class or look into some type of apprenticeship.

Establish a Budget (& Stick to It). I am at a point in my life where I have a regular paying job and have to be a responsible steward of God's money & gifts. I hope to establish a basic living budget and develop a lifestyle of humble living and giving to those in need. You can't take it with you!

In posting my resolutions publicly, I hereby give you, the reader, permission to hold me accountable to my intentions. Please feel free to check on me, keep me in check, call me out, and encourage me as I seek more of Christ's Kingdom in 2008.

Meanwhile, I hope Jesus comes back tomorrow and finds us hard @ work.

P.S. It's a little late now, so I won't be tagging anybody to share their resolutions. The buck stops here.

P.S. I'm Obsessed

2008-01-03T00:02:00.000-05:00

With my new fish-eye lens.

Sorry!

Snowy (not Puppy) Surprise

2008-01-02T23:39:00.000-05:00

It snowed. And snowed. And snowed.

And by Monday it will be 50 degrees.

We weren't expecting much in the way of inches over the New Year, but it is gorgeous. There is a pristine blanket of snow over everything. My camera loves the contrast and I love the eye candy! Tomorrow morning a friend and I are going to go out on a photojournalism excursion. I can hardly wait (hence this post @ 11:39 p.m.).

As I thought about the forthcoming 30-degree temperature swing and the complete change of the weather, I was really struck by the sweetness of God's surprises. I love the seasons of life He gives us, but the way He surprises us within the expectations of each season is pretty amazing, and all His. As my relationship with Jesus has come to be more real to me - and less about the rules I had chained myself to in the past - it's become apparent that He cannot be put in a box. Just when I think He will be working in one way in my life (and thus start to take the reigns over, "I can take it from here, thanks..."), He throws in a striking surprise. The surprise is a small gift that reminds me of Jesus' sovereignty and personality; it doesn't necessarily mean a change in season has to happen, but an unexpected surprise within that season can penetrate my humanity and create an understanding of His will in any area that I might be lacking.

All this from about a foot of snow.

A New Year, A New Hue

2007-12-27T12:19:00.000-05:00

Apparently, No. 18-3943 is the color of the year. How does one decide what color will represent a whole year that hasn't happened yet?
Moreover, how do I get a job on the 5-person "Color of the Year" selection committee? These people are getting paid for this.

A Light Shines in the Darkness

2007-12-24T14:49:00.000-05:00

To think of how it could have been

If Jesus had come as He deserved

There would have been no Bethlehem

No lowly shepherds at His birth

But Joseph knew the reason

The love had to reach so far

As he held the Savior in his arms

Song: Strange Way to Save the World

By: 4Him

The true light, which enlightens everyone, was coming into the world. He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, yet the world did not know Him. He came to His own, and His own people did not receive Him. But to all who did receive Him, who believed in His name, He gave the right to become children of God, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.

-John 1:9-13, ESV-

Movie Premier

2007-12-24T14:22:00.000-05:00

My dad decided to oblige my mom's Christmas list and get her what she really wanted - our home videos converted to digital format & stored on DVDs. He went on to surprise her by secretly doing the conversions himself, recording them between classes at school and during athletic events he was supervising. When it came to giving her the gift, he didn't disappoint - he set up a private screening of her favorite home movie at the Performing Arts Center in the high school where he teaches (and where all of us kids attended - Ali still does).

After a family (plus one) dinner, we had my poor, nervous, sick-to-her-stomach mother put on a blindfold and drove her around in the most confusing manner, back to the school. Dad & Fred went inside and set it all up while Jake & Alison slowly walked her into the PAC. I photo-documented and giggled. Mom was completely surprised and thrilled. And the sickness subsided.

Ali, Jake, & Nervous Nellie in the car on the way to mom's surprise.

Jake & Ali get Mom out of the car - I leave the shutter open for a while to catch the action.

The blind leading the blind?

Jake & Fred walking ahead to secure the school.

Dad's silhouette, running to open the other door.

Surprise!

My proud dad, playing the converted memories.

A thank-you hug.

Jake & Ali, enjoying the embarrassing moments we captured on film FOREVER.

(I made them take these) Ali's boots.

Jake's "I can't help but look cool" shoes.

One can only wear Christmas socks one time a year, so I make the most out of mine (even though they don't match).

Fred casually (ha!) got in on the shoe-photographing party, too.

2007-12-19T18:34:00.000-05:00

I've been elfed!
(from left to right)
Meg Topping = the coy elf
Emily Manning = the reluctant elf
Meg Gilmore = the surprised elf
Emily Nelson = the overly-exuberant elf

Sunsets & Sushi (& Surprises)

2007-12-17T19:25:00.000-05:00

What a whirlwind weekend! I have not have so much fun packed into such a short amount of time since... last weekend. I can't deny it, this time of the year is one of my favorites. As if Christmas wasn't enough, my birthday seems to happen around the same time every year. Funny how that happens.

Here are a few shots from my "surprise" sushi dinner @ Sushiya. Sorry they're all of the food, but it was pretty. And tasty - the star roll (in the middle) was the best, but the Red Dragon was the most comely.

Anyway, I was able to see many friends & loved ones this weekend, and felt so treasured by all of them. I tell you what, some people just know how to love. And they happen to be my friends & family.

Thank you to all of you who made my night, my day, my weekend - and who have really "made my life." I can't really express what it has meant to have you as friends, but I can thank God for you because it is all to His glory and in His love that we have each other.

Blessings all mine, and 10,000 beside.

Faith, Hope & Love Abide

2007-12-13T17:53:00.000-05:00

If you get a few moments would you please pray for my college friends Matt & Nicole Kennedy? Matt is 2 years older than me & led a mission trip that I went on (2003 Spring Break to Appalachia). Nicole hung around the art building, Wilson Hall, where I had the opportunity to meet her. They married shortly after graduating from NPU. The couple are hilarious, kind, good people who love God. They recently had their first child, a baby girl named Evangeline "Evie" Marie just before Thanksgiving. Unfortunately she was born with heart defects and they have been at the hospital ever since, going through a TON of tests, procedures, surgeries, and recovering. Evie died this week when they took her off a machine that was beating her heart for her. (see the blog they made for her)
I know it's impossible to do, but I have tried to put myself in their shoes to best of my ability and I am AMAZED, astounded at their faith, their hope, and their love for Evie & others. To think that less than a month ago they were worried about changing diapers properly and are now planning a memorial service for their little baby girl is beyond unfortunate. It is so clear, however, the maturity and the desire that God has for a deeper relationship with Him and for this couple & their baby to be used as a beacon of light. It is clear because in this cloud of uncertainty, chaos, and destruction, the very faith, hope, and love portioned for Matt & Nicole has been openly shared and distributed to all who meet, know, or love them.

This too, shall pass, but not without glory being to God and the hope of Jesus Christ being shared joyfully among a sorrowful people. Truly, 1 Corinthians 13:13 is being manifested in this situation, in this time, and in these obedient people.

Why So Serious?

2007-12-12T20:03:00.000-05:00

This might be the most appealing "scary thing" I have ever seen. Based on this slideshow, I have never been so torn about seeing a movie.

Swedes & Sweets

2007-12-11T23:44:00.000-05:00

After several years of wishing and hoping, I finally got to steal my dear friend Tess away to my favorite city. Tess is originally from Sweden, and I have long been amazed at the bravery and perseverance she has shown in moving to the States. She only goes home about once every two years, so whenever she finds something that reminds her of Scandinavia, it is pretty special. Our weekend was no different - we visited the Swedish neighborhoods of Chicago and took in a few sights, smells, and sweets from around the city.

Tess had visited Chicago briefly before, but had never spent much time, or had a slightly more inside perspective. I loved taking her to the Signature Lounge and shopping around State Street, I learned from her as we enjoyed the Sankta Lucia pageant at my alma mater, laughed and cried with her all weekend, ate a bunch of fantastic meals at various restaurants, shared her with another dear friend, and just had a gorgeous, God-breathed mini-vacation that was such a treat. We had an ongoing conversation throughout the whole weekend that has been a tremendous blessing and I am stunned with God's goodness.

Happy birthday to a sweet Swede & thank you for being my friend, my mentor, and my sister!

P.S. Special thanks to Gilmore (haha, I can't believe Dogbe called you that all 3 semesters!) for letting us stay with her & basically making it possible for us to visit. You have such a generous, hospitable spirit & it is not only appreciated by me but also by the Lord!

Sufjan's Best

2007-12-03T22:27:00.000-05:00

I'll spare you the boring detail and the extravagant gush & just say that the song, Holy, Holy, Holy means a lot to me, and that Sufjan Stevens' version of it is thus far my favorite (followed closely by Phil Wickham). Stevens' arrangement is on his "Songs for Christmas" box set, the Peace disc. May it ever please the Lord.

Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty

Early in the morning our song shall rise to Thee

There is a sign at the side of Thee

God in three persons, blessed trinity.

Holy, holy, holy, though the darkness hide Thee

Though the eye of the sinful man Thy glory may not see

Only Thou art holy, there is none beside Thee

Perfect in power, perfect in power, in love and purity.

Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty

All Thy works shall praise Thy name in earth and sky and sea!

There is a sign at the side of Thee, there is none beside Thee

God in three persons, God in three persons

God in three persons, God in three persons, blessed trinity.

-Holy, Holy, Holy, arranged by Sufjan Stevens-

All the Eagles Were In the Nest

2007-12-02T00:04:00.000-05:00

Thanksgiving Review & Other Thoughts

2007-12-01T22:05:00.000-05:00

First of all, I added photos to an older post. Another teacher that I met at our workshop emailed her set of photos to me, so thank you Chrissy!

Secondly, I am considering making another blog, a group blog with the purpose of posting scripture that the group studies, meditates on, and prays over and posts discussion and the Lord's revelation to them. Basically, as close to a blog Bible-study as you can get. As I ponder this, I am questioning 2 things:

1. Is this a bad idea in some way? Is there a better vision for it?

2. If this isn't a bad idea, who would like to be a regular contributor?

I'm pretty sure only my friends read this, so I'd like to open it up to anybody for commenting, but have a few dedicated contributors (who would basically pray over what scripture to post every so often & commit to checking the blog, updating comments, and minimal discussion). Please respond with your interest or input.

Lastly, I had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I know a lot of us think of the people, situations, and things we are thankful for during this time of year, and I am no different. It hit me like a ton of bricks last Thursday night, how good I have it. My portion is just right for me, and I have a beautiful inheritance in eternity. Thankfully, many of my family share in that inheritance!

Farmhouse-Sitting

2007-11-18T22:52:00.000-05:00

I am house-sitting for a family from church, the Abbotts. Actually, I'm small farm-sitting. Mr. Abbott works a 9-5, and his wife and kids tend a huge garden, keep bees, raise 12 goats and 20-some chickens, and generate homemade products from all of their livestock and agriculture. Thankfully I don't have to milk the goats (I tried, I'm too slow) or have anything to do with the garden (I can't even keep a real houseplant), but this is quite a taste of farm life for me!

Reasons Why I am Grateful God Has Not Made Me a Farmer:
5:55a: Alarm goes off; I hit "snooze."

6:00a: Snooze alarm goes off, I hit "snooze" again, this time with guilt.

6:02a: I feel equal parts guilty and angry that I am up so early and get out of bed, then dressed in my chore clothes. I hear a rooster crowing.

Big ol' boots
6:10a: I strap on Mr. Abbott's boots and let the dogs out of the garage for the day.

Vanilla & Cocoa, jealous sisters

6:15a: The goats are screaming at me as soon as I turn the barn light on; I feed all 9 goats, empty the leftover water and refill the buckets, cover their "berries" (I know, I hate that term too) with hay, and give them fresh veggie treats.
A neighbor arrives to milk 4 of the goats.

Peg Leg & her twin

6:35a: I clean the barncat's litter, then refill her food & water. It's been 5 days and I've still never seen her, but she keeps leaving me her messes to clean up and eating the food I leave for her, so I'm holding out for a sighting.

6:40a: Get ready for work.

6:45a: Strain the goatmilk, put it in the freezer, and sanitize the milk pail and jugs.

It is illegal to sell goat milk in the state of Michigan.

7:05a: Leave for work.

6:30p: Return from work.

6:35p: Feed, water, clean & check the goats. Neighbor milks 4 goats.

7:00p: Strain the goatmilk, put it in the freezer, and sanitize the milk pail and jugs.

7:15p: Warily go out to the chicken yard, close up the hen house if all chickens are inside. Collect eggs.

The All-Seeing Eye

7:30p: Seperate eggs into cartons.

Fresh, free-range chicken eggs of every variety.

7:35p: Prepare dinner & eat it.

There are shelves and freezers full of homemade salsa from homegrown veggies.

10:00p: Call it a day! (Repeat the next day.)

As if the 12 goats, 20-some chickens, beehives, two dogs, and cat weren't enough to keep the Abbotts busy, they manage to homeschool the four children and have a complete line of organic honey/soaps/ lip balms/ lotions that they market & sell.

A Day Well-Spent

2007-11-13T19:40:00.000-05:00

This week I had the opportunity to go to one of my favorite artistic places, a studio where I always learn something new and where everyone is welcomed to get creative - the West Michigan Glass Society. I have taken two classes on field trips in the past two years, and always try to stop when I make it to the occasional Art Hop. This time, however, was different than my field trips and drop-ins: I was given the opportunity to both create four works of art, and to mingle with other art teachers in the county. It was just what I needed: a day away from school, a chance to meet others in my position and swap ideas, an opportunity to learn new concepts and skills (particularly when I got the opportunity to create my own blown-glass ornament), and a full day of using my brain and spirit in a way that I LOVE - creating artwork!

colored glass

concentration

a work in progress

blowing glass

my finished blown-glass ornament

3 of my 4 finished pieces - the 4th is still a work in progress

Our Beautiful Inheritance

2007-11-12T22:48:00.000-05:00

The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; you hold my lot.
The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
-Psalm 16:5-6-

I love the hope I have in Christ. I revel in His love, in His great grace and deep mercy. He has taken my scandalous, sin-infested existence and traded it for a beautiful inheritance with His rich blood. I am adopted into God's family as a legitimate daughter by Jesus' death and resurrection. In choosing the Lord as my portion, I am perfectly filled. Not in a "I just ate a great meal" sort of way, but in a deep, eternal satisfaction and unrelenting assurance sort of way.
Praise to the God who can fill me like nothing else can - whose glory knows no bounds.

My Grandma's on YouTube!!!

2007-11-03T14:50:00.000-04:00

G-Ma Manning loves Gene Autrey. And Gibson guitars.

A Humble Hero

2007-10-25T20:56:00.000-04:00

I love Saturdays in the fall because for the last three years, I've had the joy of watching my big little brother play football. He has grown in leaps and bounds, and I've had the privelege of seeing much of that growth - but since he went away to Hope College, the Lord has been after Jake in big, awesome ways. He currently plays for the Hope Flying Dutchmen football team, which he quarterbacks.

Today, there was a sweet little article about him on the D3football.com website. Jake didn't miss a beat in his interview - he credits God with all of his successes and gives Him room to overcome the weaknesses. I am bursting with pride at my brother's character! It makes me want to be a better person, a better lover of Christ, a better vessel for Him to live & work in. The Flying Dutchmen have hope in Manning because Manning has hope in JESUS CHRIST.

Thanks, Jake!

Em&Ems & M&Ms.

2007-10-15T22:53:00.000-04:00

There are no words yet for the love I witnessed this weekend. I just give thanks to God for such a special time, for it has all been His plan, His work, and His love.
I hope these images do it the smallest bit of justice.

Welcome Lily!

2007-09-29T21:13:00.000-04:00

My cousin Tara & her husband Mitch had their first baby this summer. Unfortunately, due to crazy schedules and distance, we rarely see them. We seized the opportunity last weekend to throw a little welcoming party for our new addition. I am so thankful for a family that values... well, FAMILY.

A Time to Gather Stones Together

2007-09-26T22:55:00.000-04:00

Our annual "See You @ the Pole" public school prayer assembly took place (IN THE RAIN!!!) this morning. It was so encouraging, so refreshing, so blessed to see over 20 students outside the school that I teach at this morning as I pulled in the parking lot. A small group of around 10 students meets weekly in my room for a bible study, so it was surprising and awesome to see a few more faces that I didn't know shared in relationship with Christ Jesus. The students, along with 2 faculty members and 2 parents/community members took turns lifting up our school, staff, leadership, students, community, and nation to the Lord in prayer for over a half-hour before school started (which is no small thing - first bell is @ 7:40 a.m.!) I snapped a few shots, and I was grateful that the students, faculty, and community members present had their eyes closed so they couldn't see me shed a few tears in praise to the God that brings together and redeems all that we lose.

Belated Birthday

2007-09-22T22:20:00.000-04:00

I'm a few days behind in posting this (okay, a week), but it doesn't mean I love my brother any less. We celebrated his twenty-first birthday with the grandmas and pizza. What could be better?
Anyway, here are a few shots to commemorate Jaker's birthday. Here is photographic evidence that:

He is my best brother

He is my sweetest brother

He is my goofiest brother

And he is my only (living) brother!

Jake has a huge heart and is ALWAYS there for me when I need him. He has great taste, a killer eye for design, is an all-around athlete, is a stand-up comedian in his own right, and is a pillar of godly strength for my sister and I, as well as other friends and family. I am incredibly grateful for the 21 years I've had so far with Jake as my brother!

Would You Eat Yourself?

2007-09-14T23:58:00.000-04:00

First Day of School 2007

2007-09-04T22:04:00.000-04:00

All in all, it was a fast day, a long day, a mediocre day, and a good day.

Funny Mama

2007-09-03T18:00:00.000-04:00

One of the funniest conversations I've had online in a while just happened. I am online using my wireless laptop & my mom was on the PC in the other room. The "game" she refers to playing is computer FreeCell, which was what my sister once told her kindergarten teacher my mom did for a living.

me: hi mom.
mom: hi
me: good job!
mom: u no this comfuses me
me: you typed it to me!
me: i'm dying in here
mom: i know how to type
me: well yeah
mom: what do you mean? that you are dying in there?
me: but you sent it to me
me: that's impressive
me: you're making me laugh, that's what i mean
mom: OH !! :)
mom: i need to get back to my game
me: hahaha! that's right, that's what you do for a living. far be it from me to keep you from your game.
mom: you betcha
mom: love ya mama
me: hahaha. love you too. but you don't need to "sign" the end of your conversation
mom: oh
me: it's ok though. go kick butt in your game. bye!

Deep Thoughts

2007-08-28T23:57:00.001-04:00

I've been meditating on God's love and it just keeps going deeper. I can't say anything profound about it because it is already so profound.
And so good. So, so good.

Eats, Shoots, and Leaves.

2007-08-28T22:45:00.000-04:00

This past weekend I made a trip to Chicago to shoot photographs of engaged friends Jenn & Jarred. I went to college with Jenn, and we seemed to settle in with the same crowd. When a small number of us became somewhat obsessed with Saved By the Bell and had a semester-long spat of assuming the characters most like our own personalities, she was the only girl to consistently call me "Jessi." Anyway, she and Jarred will be wed in the spring and have a very creative idea that they will be using these photos for.

The first set are of the happy couple...

This next set are a few of my favorites...

The Fam & Our Girl

2007-08-23T18:38:00.000-04:00

We needed a blonde in our family.

A New Season

2007-08-23T16:23:00.000-04:00

As you can see, I got bored with my old blog layout. It was time for something new, and something that I could have my hands on a little more directly. Blogger made it very easy for me, I just had to pick a few colors. Plus, changing the colors of your blog is a lot faster, easier, and cheaper than changing the colors of your house.
Anyway, more quality posts to come in the future. I realize I have unwillfully been "on hiatus" from posting much in the way of anything substantial, and for that I blame summer and myself. I have enjoyed a very quick summer off, and am grateful to God for the period of rest and rejuevenation. It has been a whirlwind of a summer, with a lot of unexpected things popping up and the Lord has been as faithful as ever. Wonder upon wonder, grace upon grace, He never ceases to amaze me.
During this summer, I have been able to learn a new skill that I will be using to teach graphic/print design to high-schoolers, visit with some of my very best friends in the midwest at their own homes, drive across the I-35 bridge in Minnesota 2 weeks before it collapsed, host a few friends, go to Lake Michigan 4 times, have a somewhat surprising "summer birthday" party hosted by my ever-loving family, see a few movies (including Ratatouille TWICE!), purchase a new computer, take TONS of photographs, attend 2 weddings, start a personal business, and a new relationship.
Next week I go back to school - Tuesday, to be exact. I am not looking forward to it one bit. As my dad says, "Teachers work hard and play hard." I will miss playing as hard as I have this summer! However, my excitement is building for the next season. It's always thrilling to have a BRAND NEW SEASON from God - things are never the same, they are always challenging, and they are always better with Him.

Which One?

2007-08-16T23:28:00.000-04:00

Though only slightly different, I think I like this newer one better. What do you think?

faithful photography

2007-08-09T23:41:00.000-04:00

How do you like my first ad?

arRESTingly cute.

2007-08-06T23:57:00.000-04:00

The New Girl

2007-07-31T00:13:00.000-04:00

The newest Manning family member, as yet unnamed...

2007-07-07T00:27:00.000-04:00

Does anybody know anywhere in the Bible that shows a time that Jesus was overwhelmed?
If so, could you please share that with me? You can email me if you want, or just comment.
Thanks.

Love Thursday

2007-06-13T23:11:00.000-04:00

In joyful participation with AMOF's regular feature, "Love Thursday," I submit the following photographs.

Conforming to the Character of Christ

2007-06-13T22:17:00.000-04:00

I promised some inspired writing following my experience at Na. Here's my first attempt.

God created you in part to become like Christ, growing in true discipleship through truth, trouble, temptation, and time. As Rick Warren put it, "God's ultimate goal for your life on earth is not comfort, but character development. He wants you to grow up spiritually and become like Christ. Becoming like Christ does not mean losing your personality or becoming a mindless clone. God created your uniqueness, so he certainly doesn't want to destroy it. Christ-likeness is all about transforming your character, not your personality."

I believe this falls in line with Romans 8:28-30:

28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

29 For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.

30 And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.

So what is this "good" that you are working for in the lives of those who love You? Is it favor in Your eyes? Is it favor in the world? Will you take me gloriously through battle, a fearsome and well-loved warrior who wields a flaming sword of godly glory?

"The good I desire is part of my faithfulness. I desire you to have a closer, more intimate relationship with Jesus. When you take My Word out of context and suit it to your own personal desires, I do not appear faithful. If you are to understand that I work all things together for good, you must be willing to accept that 'good' does not refer to a human perspective; rather, it is a holy one."

This is good... Through Your perspective, I can see how You have been doing "good" in my life. Inasmuch as I have allowed, You have been faithful to build me up into Christ, and to draw me nearer. You have used everything possible (and impossible) to make me aware of Your love for me and Your grace over me. It is I who have been unfaithful; it is I who have not been working things together for true "good." Which brings me to my next question: why bother making me, the worst of all sinners, more like Christ? Why elect me?

"Because I love My Son and I love you, too. Because love isn't a limited commodity. Because you are human, created, but you are loveably made in My image."

Ohhhhhhhhhhh... And this is why You saved me? This is why Your Son paid the ultimate price, for the glory of the Godhead? For the subsequent multiplication of love? For the activity of love in relationship with many persons?

"The only way to truly love you best was to give myself to you, and in your sinful state, I had to die for those sins to be erased. So... you were given much grace. But please continue to walk in it, knowing that you are chosen, you are called to be one of My own daughters, very closely related to me. It is with this grace that you may walk daily, and let My light shine before all men."

Thank you, Father. Forgive me, but how can I possibly let Your light shine before men when I have already sinned and fallen short of Your standards for glory? I very much want to know what I have to do to overcome this, but I don't know where to start.

"Oh Child, don't start doing anything - it would be an offense to My Son. He already did it: He condescended to live in human form, and submitted humbly even to death. His perfect sacrifice has paid for you, it has justified you. It has wiped the slate clean for you, as you call upon the name of Jesus in repentance. Don't ever go back to the old ways, but likewise do not try to live with the law, for the law was simply an indication of death. Jesus is the Life you must live in, the only One who can lead you to abundance and love. Living in relationship with and in imitation of Jesus will mimic the law, for my Son is a servant king. Rest in the peace and comfort that your debt has been paid, and you need only ask for more grace from Jesus, which you will faithfully receive."

This grace is truly amazing. If it is true - and by your Word and Spirit, I know it is - then I am the recipient of a holy gift. I suppose this is how I am to understand that Your glory can live in me, that I may glorify You in every breath. It is the glory of God to give a holy gift, and He is glorified in its acceptance.
Father, I pray You will be glorified by this humble, inadequate, and grateful acceptance of Your grace and salvation. Holy Spirit, please help me to bear Your justification in mind as I live each day more and more submitted and in love with my God. Jesus, thank you for becoming the Way, and for coming after me.

Oh the Places You'll Go

2007-06-04T22:35:00.000-04:00

The red states are states I've been and at least touched the ground.

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Where In the World Is...

2007-05-29T03:00:00.000-04:00

This weekend, I have been here: http://www.newattitude.org/ .

Check it out. We have been having an AWESOME time of powerful teaching, learning, and fellowship. I love you, reader, and I look forward to bringing new thoughts, ideas, & discussion to you as time permits.

Mother's Day Trivia

2007-05-13T01:12:00.000-04:00

According to World Records:

On April 9, 2003, Satyabhama Mahapatra, a 65-year-old retired schoolteacher in India, became the world's oldest mother when she gave birth to a baby boy. Satyabhama and her husband had been married 50 years, but this is their first child. The baby was conceived through artificial insemination using eggs from the woman's 26-year-old niece, and the sperm of the niece’s husband.

Bobbie McCaughey is the mother who holds the record for the most surviving children from a single birth. She gave birth to the first set of surviving septuplets - four boys and three girls -on November 19, 1997, at the University Hospital, Iowa. Conceived by in vitro fertilization, the babies were delivered after 31 weeks by caesarean in the space of 16 minutes.

Jayne Bleackley is the mother who holds the record for the shortest interval between two children born in separate confinements. She gave birth to Joseph Robert on September 3, 1999, and Annie Jessica Joyce on March 30, 2000. The babies were born 208 days apart.

Elizabeth Ann Buttle is the mother who holds the record for the longest interval between the birth of two children. She gave birth to Belinda on May 19,1956 and Joseph on November 20, 1997. The babies were born 41 years 185 days apart. The mother was 60 years old when her son Joseph was born.

The highest officially recorded number of children born to one mother is 69, to the first wife of Feodor Vassilyev (1707-1782) of Shuya, Russia. Between 1725 and 1765, in a total of 27 confinements, she gave birth to 16 pairs of twins, seven sets of triplets, and four sets of quadruplets. 67 of them survived infancy.

The modern world record for giving birth is held by Leontina Albina from San Antonio, Chile. Leontina claims to be the mother of 64 children, of which only 55 of them are documented. She is listed in the 1999 Guinness World Records but dropped from later editions.

And you thought your kids were a challenge.

Weird (Good?) News

2007-04-25T18:33:00.000-04:00

According to this, Chicago is attempting to reclaim its right to having the tallest building in America.

And according to this, you're not as poor as you thought.

Laying Bricks of Obedience to Build Glory

2007-03-25T12:17:00.000-04:00

Nothing is too hard for God – nothing is impossible.

We alone limit God, our action and our inaction are the only willful factors that keep His will from being fully manifest in our lives. Obedience is not just a good thing to do, it’s not just important for keeping us safe, it is VITAL. It is meant to keep us ALIVE in the Lord, spiritually thriving.

If we are disobedient in even “one area” of our lives, we are hindering God’s will, and His very kingdom as far as our circle of influence stretches – to all of our loved ones, our friends and acquaintances, even our future generations. Unfortunately, disobedience stretches until God’s mercy steps in and stops it.

The flip side: Obedience does the same thing AND brings glory to God! In obedience to His will, not only is our life saved (in submission to the true Life, Jesus), but it is manifest as God’s will is done and completed. It brings God glory to set our actions and inactions on His Kingdom, on His people in right relationships, and on His magnificent, saving love. Obedience is the mortar of the wall our Father commissions around His people in His Kingdom – it is the adhesive that we lay our stones of faith on His cornerstone.

So I charge you – how is your will affecting the kingdom? Who do you set to action or inaction for? Whom do you serve? And why?

Don’t be easy on yourself, for surely God’s wrath cannot make exceptions. But His saving love cannot make exceptions, either. Turn to your Maker and offer Him your best obedience, and surely He will direct your steps, and God’s glory will be made manifest in your life even today.

Confusing Kingdoms

2007-03-22T20:10:00.000-04:00

I just LOVE you, Jesus. You definitely know what it means to LIVE - and for You to share that with me willingly, joyfully, excitedly ... wow. I hope you enjoy dwelling in me. I know sometimes You can't, because I am so wrapped up in MY kingdom, when I should be wrapped up in my Father's kingdom. During those times, I find myself confused, distracted, unhappy, lost... comatose. I'm not really even alive - just existing matter.
When I am zealous for Your Kingdom in Your Spirit and Your plan of massive, radical salvation, I am made alive! During these times, I remember the cold, "un-dead" feeling of life without You first, and I am made so grateful for Your grace. I am so grateful for the life You have given me, the life You are living in me; I'm grateful that you condescend to be so close. Thank you for your mercy! A joyful life I gratefully give to One who saves so mightily, and who has drawn so near as to be INSIDE ME, promising never to leave - a promise I can rely on.

Trite or Truth?

2007-03-19T20:56:00.000-04:00

“Life is hard.”
“People change.”

We’ve all heard those mundane little sayings at some point, full of empty justification. I was thinking about the empty connotations of both of those ideas when I realized they were actually true… and not necessarily all that bad.

Life is hard. Obstacles rise up and bear down every step of the way; life is never what we thought it would be on the last step. Rarely do we feel prepared for the next step, but we are always pushed into it by… people changing. Seriously, you blink and suddenly your best friend is completely different. She’s becoming more reserved, or he’s letting go of old fears – they’re changing.

Christ came to give us life to the full, not to steal it away. Abundant life is not mere existence. It is thriving, growing, dynamic – it can never be static and be considered abundant life. I don’t mean that God changes, for His faithfulness is proven with every sunrise and sunset, but we were created to change, to grow, to conform. That is all part of loving.

Life gets hard, so people change. Or, people change and life gets hard. Either way, I know that for those who love God, all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose. Praise God that we can be changed, that our hearts can be made more like His and closer to His, no matter the situation. That’s right I said NO MATTER THE SITUATION.

I emphasized that to remind myself, someday. I’ll need it.

Break our chains, Lord…
Won’t You take our burdens,
Our bondage, our deception-
And reveal it to us?

It looks like deception and fear keep us locked up, keep us from the abundance of your full blessing, from the joy of surrender to You.

Ancient Mysteries

2007-02-23T18:55:00.000-05:00

You were the first and You’ll be the end

Time cannot hold You down

Why save a wretch like me?

No eye has seen, no ear has heard

No heart could fully know

All of Your mystery

Song: Mystery

Artist: Phil Wickham

I'll take a lifetime to know you, Lord. I'll invest this lifetime learning who You are, and loving You all the while. Please give me strength to follow this through, no matter the cost.

Abraham, Sarah, Jacob, Isaac, Joseph, Moses, Joshua, Deborah, Ruth, David, Esther - they were REAL PEOPLE. They aren't made-up stories! And these real people were just like me: seeking, desiring, and needing You. They had a bit of faith that You cultivated, because of Your grace. In your great mercy on humanity, You chose "average" people who availed themselves to You to further Your kingdom.

It's taken a long time, but I'm finally desirous of that kingdom here on earth NOW. Lord, let your kingdom come and let us honor You. Let it come through each of us "average" people with seeds of faith planted firmly in You. Let it come through fire, burning away everything worldly, from the other kingdom of confusion and despair, our Enemy's kingdom. Let it come through water, baptizing us into Your refreshing Holy Spirit with a renewing, restoring, regenerating power like nothing the earth has ever seen.

Bring it, Lord! Bring your ancient desires to your creation - we are in desperate need of You, and your people desire You!

Perfect Holiness

2006-12-08T21:32:00.000-05:00

Only Thou art holy,
Merciful and mighty.
God in three persons,
Blessed Trinity.

Holy, Holy, Holy-
There is none beside Thee.
Perfect in pow'r,
In love and purity.

Please have perfect love, Father. Please have perfect mercy & power.

2006-12-07T20:37:00.000-05:00

Please pray for the family & friends of one of my 6th grade students. He was killed in a car accident tonight.

I'm devastated. And I'm sure the rest of the students will be, too.

In & Out

2006-11-26T16:58:00.000-05:00

When He becomes our only hope, love, obsession, anything & everything is God calls us to is feasible, surmountable, a piece of His glory waiting to shine through. Maybe that's part of the way He resurrects us... into a new, empowered, and eternal life that doesn't retreat.

I was so encouraged to read the story of Lazarus in John 11. Here we see perhaps the most tangible vision of Christ resurrecting a man from death. I was keen to note Lazarus' reaction upon his resurrection: he didn't go back into the cave, he didn't leave his burial clothes on, he was certainly never the same. By simply answering Jesus' call to come to Him and come alive, Lazarus became a beacon of God's love that people sought out when they couldn't get to Jesus.

What makes us think that the tomb will offer security? Comfort? Anything but death and stagnance? We've all been there... why do we choose to go back, when we've been freely given life and His presence forever?!

If you're in a tomb, COME OUT. Let me reiterate,
IF YOU'RE IN A TOMB, COME OUT!!!
Jesus would love to see you, God's people would love to see you, and the world needs to see you.

If you're standing outside but kept your burial clothes on, keep in mind that you are alive now, and you will be joining a battle for the spiritual lives of yourself & many others. Who will you belong to? "Playing dead" is as good as being dead, so let us throw off those hindrances.

If you're anywhere near your old tomb, look back only in gratefulness for your new life, and despise its chains. He alone has the power to triumph over death, over darkness, so let us not forget or take for granted that He has been our rescue. What a mighty God we serve. Hallelujah, thank you, Life-Giver!